stream of consciousness whiney rant
I am in pain.
I am waiting at CVS for my boyfriend to bring me my passport because I need it to fill my Rx narcotic.
For my dental emergency.
The roots of my wisdom teeth which I have ignored for 6 years are twisted around each other like crossed fingers and
The dentist offered to remove them tonight after I came in for emergency pain
but I just started a job that I love
and I don’t want to lose it, it is a good thing in my life, it is something I am good at,
I put off the surgery,
accept the narcotic despite my nearly six months of sobriety
and hope for the best
I won’t abuse it I won’t abuse it I won’t let it take me away
I will schedule the surgery as soon as I am secure in my job
I will tell my supervisor everything
everything will be okay
I just need some god damn painkillers and a hot bubble bath or I’m seriously going to blow my brains out